I'm feeling down...

I have been in a depressed mood most of the day. It's finally easing down now but the afternoon was rather tragic.

Andrew was going out with friends tonight so I decided to see what some of my Friends were up to and catch up. Everyone flaked and said what about lunch tomorrow, which I can't do so it started from there and i guess from lack of sleep (I stayed up until almost 4AM finishing off reading a book)

I know it's a silly thing to get so deflated from, but it's the truth. I guess I was looking forward to some girl talk, some reminiscing (we always end up talking about high school yr 12 in particular) and some laughs.

Then mum was being a cow and Katrina was being difficult and it just added to it all.

Luckily one of my Friends Melanie who I live very close to, come past for about 20mins to return the street directory she borrowed from my mum the other day. I have really found comfort in her the last year or so. We were good friends though most of my teenage years but it's just now we have closer. She's the sort of friend I don't have to put on a happy face for. If I'm feeling down I can be honest with her (no matter how trivial it seems)and she'll listen and try to give me comfort and it's returned to her also. It's almost like she sensed I needed it today and she came at the moment i needed it most.

The day as it progressed from about 4:30pm got better slowly. Music is helping me right now. I'm listing to Smile - 2pac and Scarface it's kind of what I need having the reminder through the chorus saying smile for me.

which just made me think about how I have sad songs which i listen to when I am sad. I guess it's a comfort to know that others are going through similar things, or unhappiness too. Am I weird in doing that? Anyway I am trying to make sure i skip the sad ones at the moment and keep to the happy ones, but End of the Road -BoyzIIMen just came on and I love that song, sad as it is.

Layouts Printed

Today I got about 30 of my digi layouts printed out at 8x8 size. After a total mishap from the last time I tried to get my digi layouts printed, where they were stretched and parts of them were cut off this time was perfect and I have worked out why. I joined rabbit photo's rewards club whereby I can get 8x10" prints at $3 AUS, which is a great deal.
". The trick is to make the hi-res .jpg file 8x8 then go and make the canvas size 10x8" so that each side has a little extra white space which I just cut off to make it a true 8x8". On my receipt is says that although for the 30 layouts I printed at $3 The total come to $90 and the discount came to $209.70 so thats good news for my wallet, especially since I have over a hundred more layout to print... eek!

It's so great viewing them in an album, I keep looking at them and Katrina was quite happy looking at them too. She kept looking at one of her and myself saying "me and mum ma" over and over. I can't wait to show them off to people, rather than just showing them to people on the computer or mini versions on my iPod.

I already need to go and buy either more albums or more page insert refills though. Hahaha!

Digi girls are an inspiration

I am just loving all the opportunities the digi girls are getting at the moment. Quite a few of you are off doing paper lines and those of you who aren't are still stepping to the front by coming up with amazing designs and elements which are making me go WOW you are all so creative and are creating things which I'm sure the paper girls are a little envious of not having. And when you look in the galleries it's so amazing to see all this creative work, it all inspires me so much, but i just don't have the time to make it all transform into my own work. I wish i did.

Here are some of my layouts this week:
Today credits

Drawing outside credits
Run Katrina Run credits

Radiant smile credits

Random Thoughts

Wow I have a bit of a headache right now. I seem to have had them the last few days, is it at all possible the fact I have tried to cut down my snaking on junk food could cause me headaches??

It's freezing here and im shivering, I would turn up the heater but mum is getting hot sweats (menopause) so I am stuck with being cold till it goes away.

I have been busy creating some layouts this week, so glad to get time to scrap. It's getting harder and harder to scrap, keep up with forums, blogs, emails etc. I seem to always be one of the last people to know whats going on in the digi world even though Im on and off the computer all day, most of the time.

Some of my most recent layouts:
All About Me Credits












Phone Talk Credits











Katrina&Mummy Credits

What I have been up to

Yes I has been forever since I updated this thing. I could give a million excuses and what not but half the time i foget and the other half i am too busy or can't be bothered.

So What have I been up to? You may be wondering... or probably not! :P

I have been doing controlled cyring or teaching to sleep as some other people may call it with Katrina. It's something I have put off for far too long and after lots and lots of nights without much or at least no quality sleep and Katrina finding her way into our bed all the time, it just got to the point where I was never happy and neither was andrew. So after what was at first a half hearted promise to andrew to start controlled cyring, I finally started a week ago today. While the first night took a few hourse before she fell asleep, she sleept all the remainder of the night in her bed and I am happy to say she has done so everynight since. I forgot what a good sleep can do for you and a good relax for a few hours previous to going to sleep. I feel like a fool for not doing it earlier, but I was torturing myself thinking if i had to resort to this it was because I had failed. Now I see what I was putting up with was the failure and now I am at the begining of a success. I know I will have nights to come which will challenge me still but I really don't think I will be in a rush to bring her back into my bed and have to rock her off to sleep all the time.

Also while waiting it out through the crying parts of the night I finally picked up one of the books a friend lent me a while back and started reading again. I always read, but lately it has been magazines and newspapers and not a book and I had forgotten just how good books are and just how swept up in them I get. I just finished the book off this morning (the book is Rachel's Holiday by Marian Keyes, about a young woman named rachel who becomes a drug addict, and is in total denial but after nearly dying of an overdose is sent to a rehibilitaion clinic to clean up.) and while I was anoyed with the swaping back and forth from the Past to the current at the start of the book I got used to it and really enjoyed it. I will say i prefered the past bits quite a bit more probably because of the romantic factor and the tottaly in denial of her addiction parts but on the whole it was a good read and I know I just wouldn't have read something like this if it weren't loaned to me. I think I may make it a habbit of reading again more often. I have another of the same authors books here also so I am planning to start on that one tonight.

Now on to scrapbooking... I was upset at the thought of DSD closing down and with all the talk of staying open with new changes (of which I know about, but I am sworn to secrecy about) I think things will go from great to exceptional there in the not to distant future.

I have created a few layouts since my last post too, but I need to cook dinner now so I am far to restricted on time to post them here so I will point you in the direction of my gallery at DSD just in case you want to have a looksie.
juzzie's DSD Gallery